Seriously?

no.
No.
NO.
I can't be hungry.  I CAN'T be!  Not after the week I've had.  Not after the DAY I've had!!  Seriously, what is wrong with you?!

It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.

It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.

It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.It'sAllInYourHead.

I think my scales are faulty

I have a tendency to do multiple weighings in one go and I think I've fucked up the scales.  They're digital, so pretty accurate - at least they used to be.  I don't know.  They're not really mine, they're my parents and they're in their room so I can't usually weigh myself whenever I want.  I'd get some of my own but where would I hide them?  I wouldn't want to have to explain why I wanted my own scales.

Well, wasn't that FUN?

Yes, it was actually.  I saw it coming, it's past, I can move on with my life.

Went to see Warm Bodies.  Read the book a few months back.  The book was better.  I know that statement has been worn down to the skeleton from overuse, but it's true.  But it was a fun film.  It had zombies, romance, comedy.  A ridiculously hot zombie.  Just a little light corpse watching to tide me over before the next real zombie horror is released...whenever that will be.  My only criticism is that the 'bonies' looked too much like the aliens from Signs.  Anyone else notice that?

Love, etc x

Stop kidding yourself

I don't care if you're bored.

I don't care if you're studying.

Stop making excuses.

You're annoying. 

You're weak.

PATHETIC

Stop kidding yourself.

Sometimes the best motivation is your own disgusting weight.

I don't know what possessed me to get on the scales just then.  I suppose when you know you're avoiding them, that's the time to get on them.  Because you know you're going to really hate what you see.  Because you know you slipped up badly and you're dragging around the consequences for everyone to see.

Extra dancing this week though!

Love, etc x

Horrible, horrible binges and Asking Alexandria

First off, Monday was AMAZING.  LOVE LOVE LOVE gigs.  Saw a few friends who went to different colleges which was so lovely.  Had an anxiety attack (starting to get far too frequent again for my liking) and fainted.  Which wasn't so lovely, but it's normal.  Also got stranded when a friend buggered off home with my phone (and my jacket actually) but yeah.  Apart from those two, it was a pretty brilliant night.

And the rest of the week has been one, enormous pile of shite.

Horrible, horrible binges, too ashamed to go into detail but there's just SO.  MUCH.  WORK.  Managed to drag my sorry ass from a fail in both Physics and Maths to about an A/B but, my God, it's been one hell of a climb and I caved.  It's all my fault, I know but still.  Fucking hell.

Oh, and happy Valentine's Day.  Also, Ferris Wheel Day :)

Love, etc x

My Mad Fat Diary and All Time Low

Addicted to both at the moment.

Went to see All Time Low for the first time last Thursday.  Not an ideal day to go (SO much college work) but I haven't gone to a concert in absolutely ages and I missed them.  So had a pretty good night, walked all over Manchester then spent four hours jumping up and down and being knocked to the floor.  Lost my voice.  Bruised all over.  I miss concerts.  Asking Alexandria on Monday so I get to do it all over again!  Although it seems that everyone I'm going with are all going as couples.  And then there's me, single, like always.  I don't care.  Too much work to do.  But it's slightly awkward on a night out.  Or your birthday.  When everyone turns up with someone else.  But honestly, I don't care.  Too much work.

Love, etc x